Feeling good.

I went shopping to Jacksonville today. I have felt really good this week. It is crazy how bad I feel the week after my chemo and how good I feel the next week. I worked all last week-five days and one day I pulled a twelve hour day. I know too long. But I feel so good, just trying to work all I can now because I know it is coming up where I won't be working at all. I enjoyed going shopping today even if it was just for household items. I like getting stocked up on detergent and paper plates and stuff so I won't have to keep asking people to run here for this and that. I go back to Duke this Thursday for an Ecko on my heart. They need to check it out before I get chemo on Friday to see if I can start back on my Herceptin. Not looking forward to Friday's chemo. Actually when I think about it I gag. It seems each time it gets worse. But after this Friday I will only have one more treatment. Yay!!!!! Actually Friday and Monday combo treatment. Now I am getting nervous about the surgery-actually I am nervous each chemo I get and then I keep thinking about surgery and all that is going on with that and radiation. Corky says he has never know anyone to worry like me. That's probably why I have cancer I reckon-I just don't know how to not worry about EVERYTHING. I have faith but still worry. I worry about this stupid cancer and when I get done if it will come back, I worry about my children-everything they do-I don't know how I am going to handle Harlie getting her permit. (she starts drivers ed this week) Why worry about cancer because that will probably give me a heart attack.

There was a girl that I use to cut her hair that was 28 years old and just passed away from breast cancer-it went to her liver. It is so terribly sad, she has a 2 year old child.